This is a bit of venting, sorry in advance.

I think I forgot for most of the year. I was actually looking forward to the San Fermines, the local week long festival of Iruña, my hometown (Euskal Herria/Spain). A few friends are visiting, there are barracas (funfair and attractions), and at night a beautiful display of fireworks (they are still of the noisy kind, though).

I just went to the first protest and it dawned on me: it’s a festival of torture. I suddenly remembered the horrible images of animal cruelty and torture of every year, the imagery, the glorification of the murderer…

And we can do nothing. The protests don’t change anything. Most people are actually against the “running of the bulls” here, but still, no one cares enough, and nothing changes from year to year.

I hate myself much more than I hate them. They don’t care. I care, and still, I don’t do more than attending these protests. I don’t even know what else I could do… I’m becoming unsensitized and I’m just scared. And this is just the visible part, everytime someone eats meat at my table and I remember… But most of the time I don’t even think about it.

How do you not forget and not go crazy? Is there a way???

  • @sexy_peachA
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    62 years ago

    Look back in history and through what kind of injustice activists before us had to live through. Or look to other places in the world where people still are in those situations. There is no value in feeling horrible about yourself, in going crazy.

    • @enebe@lemmy.mlOP
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      32 years ago

      hug Thank you. I guess things are improving, it’s just… so slow.

      But I’ll keep trying my best